Choreographic Work
Apostasy
The difficult process of learning that something you love doesn't love you back. Apostasy was a personal investigation of ways of healing from religious trauma and rejecting harmful former narrative that especially impact queer people and women in the Catholic Church.
Healing myself for myself, not for you, not for others, not for an ethereal being in the sky.
Wood, Metal, Bodies, Barre
This piece came to fruition both as a solo and quartet. Overall, the work aims to mess with the restriction of the ballet barre and allow for more playfulness and more possibilities for how the barre makes us move. Mixing floor barre, contemporary ballet and curiosity, this piece aims to make fun the barre standard.
It was supposed to be a duet
It was genuinely supposed to be a duet, turned a real time exploration of the nature of social anxiety. When too nervous to connect with another person, I turned instead to connect with the inanimate investigating the vast possibility of working with an object and coming to terms with what's lacking when you aren't dancing with another human.
"Fragments: A POEM"- Audio created by me for the work using an original poem.
FRAGMENTS: IF... PICTURE.... GRANDMOTHER
Creation Process
At some point it felt like everywhere I looked people were talking about their grandmothers. My friends were doing research to connect with them more or the ballet accompanist would reference her grandmother when giving corrections. It felt like I couldn't escape talk of grandmothers. Yet, it all had a romanticized sheen that I couldn't relate to. To me "grandmother" conjures up an empty void and people I never really met. Fragments was the presentation of grandmother as abstract concept and piecing together the dissonance that the word has in my head.
At 3am she dreams of being a star
The inner workings of a late night fever dream. The presentation of inside and outside. Expectation vs. reality. This piece explores what late night day dreams of being on stage actually look like meshed with the awkward, marked, headphone wearing reality that is conjuring up ideas late at night in one's basement.
Stilling
A choreographic collaboration with composer Abby Kellems with live music performed by Nois. Stilling is the title of Kellems' musical composition which addresses the slowing of wind patterns that occurs with climate change.
But it doesn't wash away
A common experience among individuals with severe anxiety is avoidance of the shower. While the body comes to a standstill under the water, the mind runs. Dancing, moving, looping flowing with the water. But It Doesn’t Wash Away examines the connection between dance, anxiety and water, the fear of stopping, standing, existing with one’s thoughts– the need for the body to move to overwrite thoughts that dance in circles.